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   J. R. DePriest :verified_trans: :donor: :Moopsy: :EA DATA. SF: (jrdepriest@infosec.exchange)'s status on Friday, 17-Oct-2025 10:17:13 JST J. R. DePriest :verified_trans: :donor: :Moopsy: :EA DATA. SF:

   I organize many of my household tasks around "Sit Time". I want to maximize the amount of time I get to sit down. This means minimizing "Time Between Sit Downs" by carefully calculating "Steps Between Sit Downs" to be as efficient as possible. I know how long certain things take, like it takes almost 45 seconds to fill up a water bottle from our cooler. I try to minimize distance between each task and avoid retracing my steps.

   Last night left me in a meltdown because I tried to do too many things in one night. If I didn't feel the need to count every step of every task and organize them for efficiency it might not have been so bad. That long list just wore on me even as I was ticking through it. By the end I was yelling at myself in gibberish, stomping, and starting to laugh hysterically while also crying.

   I really wanted to break things, throw things, bite myself, headbutt a wall, punch a box, but I didn't. My wife already gets scared enough when I meltdown.

   "Never again," I say, knowing I'll probably do it again.

   #AuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #Meltdown

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     Green Roc Thoughts (greenroc@mastodon.social)'s status on Friday, 17-Oct-2025 10:17:11 JST Green Roc Thoughts

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     @jrdepriest I feel intense relief upon headbutting a hard surface, but the action scares people too much. I struggle to find alternatives to my limited capacity of choice in the middle of these meltdowns. Starting this year, I have found that hitting my head with a stuffed animal seems to be working.

     I just have to keep a stuffed animal in my hands at all times, somehow.

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     Miakoda (hellomiakoda@pdx.social)'s status on Friday, 17-Oct-2025 10:17:11 JST Miakoda

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     @GreenRoc @jrdepriest 🤷♀️️ I have my stuffed animal with me at (nearly) all times. He's not for head butting tho.

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     @GreenRoc my wife got really scared when I headbutted the wall so I had to find another way. It probably wasn't very good for me either. I could have given myself a concussion. I don't even know why headbutting a solid surface "helps". It makes no sense but it worked.

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     Green Roc Thoughts (greenroc@mastodon.social)'s status on Friday, 17-Oct-2025 10:17:13 JST Green Roc Thoughts

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     @jrdepriest We're expected to do too much, then we meltdown. Mine tend to want to headbutt a wall. I dont cook because it requires too much standing.
     I never want to meltdown, but someone's gotta do some of this stuff around here.

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     Miakoda (hellomiakoda@pdx.social)'s status on Friday, 17-Oct-2025 10:40:32 JST Miakoda

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     @GreenRoc @jrdepriest The trick is to have a "Fuck you" attitude about it. If people ask questions nicely, sure, I'll answer. But if I get a "Aren't you too old?" remark, my response is along the lines of "Fuck you, you judgey prick"

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     Green Roc Thoughts (greenroc@mastodon.social)'s status on Friday, 17-Oct-2025 11:08:43 JST Green Roc Thoughts

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     @VulcanTourist @hellomiakoda It was for their stress relief, they were dressed in camo, some sort of female pair of military, in their early 20's.

     I'm often a day sleeper, cant sleep with their bass throbbing inside my heart chambers :/

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     Miakoda (hellomiakoda@pdx.social)'s status on Friday, 17-Oct-2025 11:08:43 JST Miakoda

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     @GreenRoc @VulcanTourist Get a couple thousand watts of amps and speakers, and some real good ear plugd. When their music goes loud, EQ in REALLY mid heavy and play this...
     https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLnQpzSIOd8ElpJJgWAzQ-endCr4C2bUwc

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     VulcanTourist (vulcantourist@autistics.life)'s status on Friday, 17-Oct-2025 11:08:44 JST VulcanTourist

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     @GreenRoc @hellomiakoda

     They don't need music to drown out the inner voices. They need to listen to them. They need introspection.

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     Green Roc Thoughts (greenroc@mastodon.social)'s status on Friday, 17-Oct-2025 11:08:45 JST Green Roc Thoughts

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     @hellomiakoda Reminds me of a neighbor who would play painfully loud music, and I tried to ask them to turn it down, and they defended themselves telling me that I am old and they are young and that they needed their music.

     Ow.