Notices by Green Roc Thoughts (greenroc@mastodon.social)

@hellomiakoda Aww I appreciate you :BlobhajHeart:

@hellomiakoda I'm not afraid of odd things. I feel odd things are fascinating, and I want to learn more about them.

@hellomiakoda I watched a video once, about animals of some place on earth... I paraphrase narrator

"Do you see this creature? Most people are afraid of it, because people are scared by odd things. Isn't it weird? but actually, it's harmless to humans, but not the ant. It likes to eat ants"

@hosford42 "a healthy person has a thousand dreams" while "a sick person has only one" RFK Jr full of bullshit.

I have a thousand and one dreams... None of which can be realized because I'm treated like I'm 'incompetent' by people who control places that have the tools I need to make my dreams come true.

My brother got past those barriers requiring perceived 'competence'.

Bro invented a patented chip that China would kill for. It's in your phone.

Me with the same IQ as my bro.

@georgetakei ... and three choppers, not 50.

@punishmenthurts @hellomiakoda I'm sorry, I dont get it. Either of you willing to elaborate?

I personally got told there was something wrong with me since I was two, and abused into behaving like a normal person, which I could never perfectly achieve. I always fell short of their goals/expectations, even with my best efforts.

Across four adult years I tried VERY hard, but my body gave up and had meltdowns, w/o my consent.

I cant act like a normal person, my acting skills are not good enough.

@punishmenthurts May I have a repeat? I need repeats, or you dont have to, I'm not your boss. I dont decide anything for you. You respond at your own leizure, or not at all.

I wish to acknowledge your freedom of choice, and acknowledge my stupidity on not knowing what is sarcasm or not.

@punishmenthurts @hellomiakoda Argh I hate that ideaology.

you aint the R word, you aint the person they knew when you were fawning either. Fawning, pretending to be NT... a survival tactic, a result of brainwashing you endured from your first memories (as I reference your expeirence from my own, which may or may not be the same).

Gawd I wish they knew the truth, instead they are believing wehatever BS fits their own ideaologies to benifit their own personal comfort, father be damned

:(

@hellomiakoda Spoiled, as far as a wheelchair person is spoiled when asking for a ramp.

They often dont understand the accommodations we need because the accommodations we need usually arent visibly obvious.

EG: Lights dimmed, sound lowered, exempt from dress codes, more time with everything (paperwork, phone calls, appointments, communication, etc).

Bad? Hell no, not me, never in my life have I EVER chosen malice (my mom would disagree). Different? Absolutely yes.
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@hellomiakoda gfd, I get that too, from people who are supposed to be family... and strangers also have told me that I'm a troll, toxic, manipulative, vindictive... and I am none of those.

My own father accused me of trying to be spoiled, he took that idea to his grave.

I try to be good, every second of everyday of my life, often to my own detriment. But still, most people who come across me will treat me like I'm some evil monster.

Theory: fear of unknown, they feel the unknown is bad.
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@MediaActivist
I'm sorry that staff is so abelist. I wish they knew what being chronically fatigued feels like, clearly they dont get it.

I continue to wear my mask outside my home (damn forgot it today on a short trip to the car)... being without a upper respiratory infection since 2020 is so nice.

Used to get sick twice per year before 2020. I never liked that experience.

Masks work. n95 or better.

@MediaActivist As I like to say, "As much as I could walk on hot coals." to anyone exclaiming how I could do something I really should not be doing.

@hellomiakoda Brainwashed since birth to despise those different from themselves, and intimidated into obeying everyone claiming to be above them in authority... breeding inside them deep distain for everything, and making fun of others is how they cope.

Humans suck sometimes.

@hellomiakoda Thank you. I was worried I might not be giving the best words for your situation with the rude roommates... I agree wholeheartedly with what Murdoc said. They should not be mad with you, unless they are selfish hoomans. Seems like selfish peoples, lacking respect for your time of mourning.

Their game is not that important, if you wanna quote me, tell them to use "blue fire". My past DND groups told me that most DND players should know what Blue Fire means.

According to many people in society, I talk too much. I been declared as "spam"ming without copy pasta, without repeating, in more than one community, one of which insisted on a group vote to vote me out for "spamming"... I was not spamming! Just because i had a lot to say about a lot of topics, does not equate to a spammer who advertizes and repeats themselves with copy and paste.

From my perspective, I havent said enough. For if you knew all about me, I'm pretty sure you'd not think I spam.

I am not paying attention to what day of the week it is...

What a load off my brain, whew :)

@hellomiakoda the check went to my new payee, so it was missing on my own derpyness.

The Trump administration has fired tens of thousands of federal workers, did the admin even think about these people's futures?

People who have to support themselves and their families basic needs will have to find a job elsewhere. Who is to hire them, are there that many jobs in non-federal workplaces?

I think about their futures.
I am deeply saddened.
#USpol

I plan to keep tooting about my current situation of my SSDI check not showing up this month.

I do have people around me to help me out, potentially temporary housing, and access to food...

I might lose my internet, I never know.

My future is uncertain.

When policitcs fuck with lives, I cant just ignore the political articles.

https://www.thedailybeast.com/elon-musks-doge-goons-cause-major-crash-to-social-security-site/

#USpol
#MySSCheckIsMissing

Traumatizing me more will not fix already developed trauma...

Say NO to 'Wellness camps'.
It's abusive traumatizing 'Unpaid Labor Camps' in disguise.