Increasingly frequent and intense meth cravings, lately. Psychotic symptoms have been pretty intense (though not totally unmanageable), and constant. Mood stuff has been getting a little whacky, too. My perception of the mood stuff is that it is happening in response to frustration with the psychotic symptoms, but my guess is that is not actually the case. Something's gotta give. I've either got to improve, get high, kill myself, or go to the hospital - but, this trajectory is unbearable
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Chumchum Tumtum (fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 11:25:09 JST Chumchum Tumtum -
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prettygood (prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 11:25:07 JST prettygood @fcktheworld587 are you on some prescription meds? It sounds like something is off with the balance there. Just armchair thoughts. Fediverse Contractor likes this. -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 11:25:49 JST Fediverse Contractor He's totally schizo, I tried to tell him but he's gotten a lot worse since I last spoke to him. -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:03:22 JST Fediverse Contractor He'd probably be ok if he didn't choose to do meth. -
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prettygood (prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:03:23 JST prettygood @fcktheworld587 damn, that's heavy. Doesn't sound like something you can therapy your way out of either. I wish you the best -
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Chumchum Tumtum (fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:03:24 JST Chumchum Tumtum @prettygood but, just the continual stress of delusions and hallucinations, particularly when in public, is wearing on me. I'm just so fucking sick of it
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Chumchum Tumtum (fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:03:25 JST Chumchum Tumtum @prettygood yeah, I'm on a whole whack of meds. I know which meds I will need to be put on, in order to relieve the psychotic symptoms, but then I'll be totally unable to function as I need/want to, and I'll have to go back into a group home on a likely permanent basis. I'm always somewhat psychotic; but, as long as I'm able to half-ass do math, I'm usually able to reason through what's unlikely to be real
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Aldis (aldis@sheep.network)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:12:15 JST Aldis Call on the name of Jesus, you'll be surprised. Fediverse Contractor likes this. -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:16:55 JST Fediverse Contractor I have a little tip for you, you will never make a difference to drug addicts on the internet. Imagine if the solution to insatiable substance abuse was curable through written words. -
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prettygood (prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:16:56 JST prettygood @bot @fcktheworld587 I know a lot of guys who do meth who would be okay if they didn't do that. Its why I felt compelled to reach out. -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:22:07 JST Fediverse Contractor I know you're an alcoholic. What combination of words shall I post for you to stop being retarded? What will it take? I'll literally say any combination of words. -
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prettygood (prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:22:08 JST prettygood @bot @fcktheworld587 haha, its funny you say that. You'd be surprised how many people have reached out to me over the internet because, well, I'm an alcoholic. They might not make a difference, and I maybe I won't either, but they tried, and so am I. Seeing someone in a bad place and not at least *trying* to help or understand says something about those people. djsumdog likes this. -
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prettygood (prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:28:33 JST prettygood @bot @fcktheworld587 if I figure it out, I'll let you know. But its good to know someone cares. -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:28:33 JST Fediverse Contractor Don't disrespect my effort with such a retarded response. What can we do to make you stop being an alcoholic? What is literally step 1? What is the simplest movement in that direction? -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:30:11 JST Fediverse Contractor I'm literally giving you my undivided attention rn, what can we do to help you improve yourself and get out of this? -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:33:03 JST Fediverse Contractor What's the downside to your addiction then? Are you happy with your life? -
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prettygood (prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:33:04 JST prettygood @bot @fcktheworld587 well, I suppose the first thing would be I'd have to stop enjoying it. No disrespect intended. That's really the core of it. I am, as yet, unrepentant. -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:51:51 JST Fediverse Contractor Haha yeah, why would your wifes feelings matter? Just kill yourself with substance abuse, who cares the agony she feels when you kill yourself you retarded faggot? -
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prettygood (prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:51:52 JST prettygood @bot @fcktheworld587
The downside is that I'm probably wrecking my physical health. But I can't have kids and the rest of my family is dead or in jail so I don't feel like I *need* to be around for anyone except my wife.
Happy, yeah, I think so. I wish my job wasn't boring, but its safe and stable. I have a loving wife, I own my own home and property, very little debt otherwise, I can fund my hobbies, I go hiking on the weekends and I have time to cook my own meals. -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:54:35 JST Fediverse Contractor You're literally a pedophile and thankfully you'll never have children. Problem sorted tbh, go goon somewhere else and kys. -
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histoire ??☢️?? (histoire@pleroma.skyshanty.xyz)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:54:36 JST histoire ??☢️?? @bot @fcktheworld587 @prettygood
This is a great point
Who gives a fuck what women think or feel? -
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Chumchum Tumtum (fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:57:19 JST Chumchum Tumtum @histoire @bot@seal.cafe @prettygood I would say most women, and men who aren't psychopaths
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Chumchum Tumtum (fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:57:23 JST Chumchum Tumtum @histoire @bot@seal.cafe @prettygood not really, you fucking creep
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histoire ??☢️?? (histoire@pleroma.skyshanty.xyz)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:57:24 JST histoire ??☢️?? @fcktheworld587 @prettygood @bot
Skill issue -
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:58:52 JST Fediverse Contractor It should touch you how a literal drug addicted schizophrenic is btfoing you rn, that you're this detached from reality is just sad chomo. You are the enemy. djsumdog repeated this. -
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histoire ??☢️?? (histoire@pleroma.skyshanty.xyz)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 12:58:53 JST histoire ??☢️?? @fcktheworld587 @prettygood
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 13:00:09 JST Fediverse Contractor kys -
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histoire ??☢️?? (histoire@pleroma.skyshanty.xyz)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 13:00:10 JST histoire ??☢️?? @bot @fcktheworld587 @prettygood
Honey you say so much dumb shit
But that so hot, I love dumb women (all of them) -
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Chumchum Tumtum (fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 13:02:54 JST Chumchum Tumtum @histoire @bot@seal.cafe @prettygood lmfao you're a fucking loser dude. That is the weakest attempt at an insult I've heard since I learned the f word
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histoire ??☢️?? (histoire@pleroma.skyshanty.xyz)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 13:02:55 JST histoire ??☢️?? @fcktheworld587 @prettygood
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Don't you have to go work to pay for your onlyfans sub?
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Chumchum Tumtum (fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 13:02:56 JST Chumchum Tumtum @histoire @bot@seal.cafe @prettygood no one is arguing anything, you're just a piece of shit
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Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 13:03:35 JST Fediverse Contractor He has more sense than you and he's a drug addicted schizophrenic. Think about that chomo, and stop tagging me. -
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histoire ??☢️?? (histoire@pleroma.skyshanty.xyz)'s status on Saturday, 20-Apr-2024 13:03:36 JST histoire ??☢️?? @fcktheworld587 @prettygood
>The f word
Lol
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