@emmalilian Word. We write a lot about "looking hot" and stuff, and it's good to do so, but for me, the real magic was in how just coming out and starting the journey at all opened up so much new space for self care, the chance at joy, room for love and kindness, etc. So many of my trans friends say this as well. It is, as you said, because we're no longer wasting all our effort on coping.
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Kit Rhett Aultman (roadriverrail@signs.codes)'s status on Sunday, 11-Jun-2023 19:50:38 JST Kit Rhett Aultman -
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Emma🏳️⚧️ (emmalilian@eldritch.cafe)'s status on Sunday, 11-Jun-2023 19:50:40 JST Emma🏳️⚧️ I know I tend to to complain about dysphoria and imposter syndrome and other things here on occasion. But dammit, I truly love who I am now, where I’ve gone and where I’m going.
Overused, but it’s so damn magical. Seeing glimpses of myself more and more. Looking at my (incredibly imperfect) body and seeing things I like where before there was nothing. The intense and amazing feelings that can be illicited from it. Unbelievable.
During the weekends, I like to just spend time in bed with wifey. Yeah.. sure sometimes we fool around, but a lot of times we just lay next to each other, stare, hold hands… just enjoy life. And I never did that before. And I realize because I have peace with myself. I am truly becoming who I always was meant to be, and that means I can focus less on coping, and more on loving and living.
It’s so crazy to live each day and just… enjoy it. I wasted so much of my life just… figuring out ways to kill time to the next milestone where I prayed I would achieve some happiness. I lost so much time. But no more. Every day is special because it’s worth being in the moment.
I hope we can all get to this point somehow. And if there’s something I can do to help, I will do what I can. 💙
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