Notices by Reality the Blood Wraith 🌹💙🩸🗡 (thebloodwraith@shota.house)

@mischievoustomato@tsundere.love I'm also ftp for now. I'm hoping I can pour money into the game in the future, and it feels good that my reason is actually because I want to support the developers. whenever I play, I feel respected, and like the devs aren't just farming me. That, and their dedication to not censoring themselves and the meaninings behind the stories they tell are really worth supporting :)

However, having fully maxxed 5 star characters wouldn't be bad 👀I also wanna invest in all the weapons and new character skins as they come out 🙌

@mischievoustomato@tsundere.love Damn you skipped Brant didn't you lmao... his game play is fun. I'd love to have him, honestly. Fighting with him felt very smooth.

@mischievoustomato@tsundere.love Let's gooooooo hope we both get Cantarella 🙌

@mischievoustomato@tsundere.love I didn't get notified of your reply I'm sorry 😭

I wish my family would take me seriously. My cousin doesn't understand that tonight may be the last time she sees me. The last time she hugs me. She thinks because I've never done it before, I won't, but she doesn't understand.

I'm not fishing for attention. I'm not looking for "call the hotline" messages. I'm not looking for pity.

You don't know my situation. You don't understand. There's so many people who live with me. One of them has untreated bipolar. I can hear her talking about me over two fans running. I can't do anything in my own home without hearing how she thinks I'm stripping her rights away. Communication isn't allowed. We aren't allowed to ask for a schedule. Even saying, 'I need everyone to wash their hands after they take the trash out" is too big of an ask.

I'm not allowed to kick her out, and she refuses to go to work. Nobody will go to work. Only one person has a job, and that person is holding everything together. I just want to wash my dishes. I want to take the trash out. I want to clean my house. I want to wash my clothes. I want to eat. I want to shower.

I am thirty. Ever since my mother died, my life has been hell. I was doing better, and then all of a sudden, we had to take this monster into my home.

If I kill myself tonight, I will leave instructions for my cousin to send out a message to you all, to my people on Discord, to my followers on YouTube. I know everyone says, "It gets better", but I live in a situation where even though this is my home, I have to watch how loudly I breathe. I have to think so far ahead assuming how she might react. I can't shower unless she's asleep. The only one allowed to feel bad is her. Nobody else can show emotions. I am not allowed to leave if she starts talking to me, because then I hear her banging things around and talking about how nobody wants to listen to her. When she speaks, she keeps whoever she is talking to captive for hours, and then claims you're the one who drained her social battery. She s the only one allowed to speak during this. You don't get a turn. She doesn't allow us to set a schedule for anything so we can get stability because of how much it "stresses [her] out". She actively talks about sabotaging people. She's the reason I'm way less left wing than I used to be. She refuses to go to work, and expects everyone else to take everyone over, yet refuses to accept any help. She wont clean her children's room, and their floor is filthy. She doesn't get on a sleep schedule, and blames it on everyone else. She doesn't let anyone else feed her kids, and she sleeps all day. She sleeps in the living room right near the kitchen because we don't have room for her, so we can't eat or clean or do anything while she's asleep, and then she "requires" two hours of alone time before anyone can come out, and refuses to take this time to go be somewhere else. She talks about how she is imprisoned all the time, and refers to her and her kids as "homeless" even though they've lived with me for close to a year. I'm not allowed to use earphones outside of my room because I have to always be available in case she wants to talk. You're required to agree with everything she says. She is trying to live off the government instead of getting even a basic retail job. She quit her last job because they disrespected her. She doesn't let her kids be in public school, or visit friends. Any time I finally leave the house to go see my family, she says I'm being sneaky. We have to be quiet, but she can be as loud as she wants to be. We can't breathe, and she lights incense. We can't leave the house, she can come and go as she pleases. And I don't have any evidence to prove that she is abusive, so I can't call the cops and have her taken away from here. I'm not strong enough physically or mentally to be able to kill them and make the problem go away myself, and if I did that, the only person bringing in income will turn me in, or leave, and then I will die anyway because the electricity is paid by the day, and I don't have money because I'm disabled and can't go to work at most jobs.

This is supposed to be my home. They all trashed it. It's very broken down now. To the point where we could fall through the floor any day now. They ruined the one piece of furniture I bought. I'm scared they're going to break the conch shell my dad bought m, and that's all I have left of him.They're all probably leaving rings on my table, which I am not allowed to use. It was passed down from my grandparents who hand made it and gave it to us. I can't walk up and down the hallway with earphones in because it bothers her, and I needed it to keep my muscles from getting this deteriorated. The rare time they finally leave the house, they don't tell anyone, so we don't even get to come out and clean or do anything while they're gone because the rest of us are hiding in our rooms. She ruined my birthday by intentionally watching a movie with her kids so nobody could speak. We had made a big deal out of everyone else's birthdays. She didn't say happy birthday to me. When I kicked them out before she wasted their food money on hair dye. She refers to things she does for herself as treats for herself, and we don't know if she also gets them for her kids. when their mother acts up, her youngest child who isn't even a teenager yet apologizes on her behalf because she knows her mother doesn't apologize.

I don't deserve this. I shouldn't have to die to get out of this situation., but I actually might soon. I may actually be gone soon. I may leave a video that I want shared by my cousin online. I hope that if this is how it has to go, that it at least serves as some form of message. Something that finally makes everyone who wouldn't believe me understand that this is actually how bad it is here. Everyone in this house has made plans to kill themselves.

My situation was bad before everyone moved in, but I never knew it could get so much worse. My mom was a terrible person, but my situation was much better than this. I didn't know it could get worse.

I don't have the energy to be able to do anything to change my situation. I can't have friends over. I can't go see anyone. I can't work, I can't get help. I am in a situation where I am so burned out that I can't manage anything, and even if I finally was in a situation where i could finally clean, it would take mea long time before I could finally relax and know for a fact that they're finally gone and never coming back. Even last time when they were kicked out, they left all of their things behind, so we couldn't even clean or spread out or change rooms over, or anything because we "weren't allowed to touch their things".

It would be better for everyone if I posted less so people didn't miss me as much if I end up doing this.

@hakui@tuusin.misono-ya.info @RehnyNytes256

Thought I would let you know I'm still here. I've had some time to focus on a game I enjoy. I was so immersed, I actually forgot that anyone else lives with me at all for some hours.

Well, the issue is that the one person who makes money is also the sister of the monster that lives in my house, and the monster has two children. Because of this, if I put them on the street again, the only person bringing in money will leave to go with them to make sure they don't die out there. essentially, those kids are being used as a shield. Because the monster knows I can't make a move because of their existence.

It's also my home. I have nowhere else I can go, and no money coming in from my endeavors yet. Every other house nearby in my family is full, and they're in poverty and dealing with meth addicts.

My cousin and her fiance are home, and they said they'll help me get my car working by the end of the week, so I should have a way to leave the house more often, and also go start earning money. It won't be enough to live alone, but it'll be something to help me start working towards a life that isn't this one. So, that is my good news I can return with.

Also, my cousin gave me two macaroni cups and a strawberry uncrustable, and that also helped make me feel better.

I searched and apparently I haven't restarted my #wutheringwaves thread on the new shota.house, so here we go.

Got Pheobe, got an achievment, I have her weapon, I have over 800 astrite left to put towards Brant when he comes home... not bad for ftp.

I didn't get a ss and don't care enough to go back in, but I got the most... uh... don't remember what they're called, but I have 20/30 in TOA. Most I've ever managed.

I'm only missing 4 resonators. 5 if you count Brant since he hasn't dropped yet. I don't feel like I'm doing bad at all. In the future, I'd love to be able to actually drop some money on the game. I don't have any to spare, and won't for awhile, but I'd love to be able to buy Jinhsi's new outfit, get all of my 5 star resonators past S0, get everyone their signature weapon... I actually have at least 3 signature weapons so far.

Would really also like to eventually commission someone. We need more porn of the loli characters. No idea why nobody is doing that, so I guess I need to be the change I wanna see in the world and get someone to do it.

Restarting my #oldinternet thread.

I encourage you to get everything out of your Watch Later list. Even if you aren't trying to only get videos from way back when recommended only, there are good reasons:

1. You have hundreds of even thousands of videos in there. It's like hoarding. Just let it go. If you are meant to see them, they will eventually be recommended to you again.

2. Those videos don't suit your current interests and you know it.

3. They are likely continuing to recommend you things based on your Watch Later, which means your recommended is polluted with garbage.

4. If you're like me, you used to watch people who turned out to be awful, and their stuff is in your Watch Later, long forgotten. Nobody wants to be jump scared with a DSMP recommendation.

If deleting 3k videos by hand doesn't sound like a fun time, you may want to consider the possibility of deleting that YouTube account. If you make another one, make sure your cache is cleared, and you don't have linked Google accounts, or you'll still get things in your recommended that indicates YouTube remembers your previous account.

If your goal is to get rid of AI only from your recommended, then add this to your searches on both YouTube and Google:

before:2022-08-22

However, if you want to also cull Mr Beast style retention editing from your recommended, do this:

before:2017-01-01

Your next course of action after you've cleared all your history and made YouTube forget you is to go look up things using this method, make a playlist of videos from before the unwanted date, and then remember to turn off watch history if you're trying out a new channel or watching something that you likely won't want recommended to you. Take a few days to a week of just letting these videos play while you aren't there so that YouTube starts recommending the correct content to you. It will still try to push new videos, but it'll eventually be 90-95% older videos after awhile.

At first, YouTube will be confused about what you want, and recommend, for example, anime videos from every year. If you indiscriminately watch videos that are older, it will wonder what you're planning. But then, it will finally give only videos that are old. Always remember to not watch newer things (unless it's from a trusted channel that you know doesn't meet the criteria for content you want to avoid) with watch history on.

This works for all websites. You can cull all AI from every search if you do the first search month I recommended. So, until we get a website that isn't garbage, you can still use Pinterest through Google:

Anime art Pinterest before:2022-08-22

You can cull further like this:

Anime art Pinterest -catboy -catgirl -neko -furry -sonic -hedgehog -blue -pink before:2022-08-22

On YouTube, you can also cull names of creators, and words in titles. Not adding the year this time.

Minecraft -dsmp -dream -george -willbur

You can cull websites from searches.

Poses for art -pinterest -reddit

If you know how to use tamper monkey, you can have a lot of stuff done for you in regards to certain specific searches. I'd explain how, but I need to learn more before I talk.

Can't find anything that fits the mold for what I want to watch based off of any of my current interests, and I do NOT want to have to be the change I want to see in the world.

@JustDisa I thought KYC was a legal requirement? That sort of thign only starts happening when certain products are bought in bulk or in too close succession in areas that tend to have issues with scams, fraud, and money laundering (such as buying large amounts of gift cards).

I have an idea:

What if we made it cheaper and easier to do things the ethical way? Businesses would switch on their own because they care about profits, not whether their stuff is made with child labor, underpaid workers, or by dumping toxins everywhere. If unethical options became the expensive, crappy ones, and the ethical stuff was better and more affordable, change would happen fast.

This has to be something everyone can afford, even people barely scraping by. We don’t need the government stepping in—because that usually just makes things worse—we need solutions that actually work for regular people.

Instead of shaming folks for buying or watching the "wrong" thing (which honestly just annoys people and doesn’t help), we could share better alternatives in a positive way:
"Hey, I found this cheaper, better option to [bad product]! It works way better, costs less, and I’ll never go back. Check out my review here: [insert link]."

Nobody wants to feel like their one purchase/view is killing the planet, especially when it’s really the big corporations causing the damage. If we make it easy to switch to stuff that’s not trash, people will actually do it.

#realitygetspolitical

@JustDisa The radicalization part is exactly what I'm thinking. it's the same for all things. i don't know what it is, but telling a human not to do something often makes them want to do it more, to the point of fixation.

For instance, I didn't really like lolisho until enough people made an issue of it. At first it was pure spite, but now it's unironic enjoyment.

I'm not sure how we could find a way to make something be cheaper, ethical, and higher quality. Some off brand things are so awful that i could never recommend them to anyone because the off brand tastes so bad or "functions" so poorly, that it just makes all off brand things look like an awful idea.

Some people might at least try to go for cheaper/more ethical, but don't realize that the off brand product they're buying is literally owned by the same guy they're trying to avoid. In terms of keeping things ethical, we're having serious monopoly issues in America. When i was in retail, I learned that the candy companies that were "competing" that we would promote at the cash register were literally the same guy wearing different hats. They break off into differet companies so they don't get in trouble for having a monopoly, but they still own everything. And almost every company is tied to one major evil. That's how it always goes. I found this out while briefly trying to figure out how I could avoid giving Nestle money and realized that they are tied to way too many. If a person doesn't care about other human beings, that's how you get rich. If I had even 1% less morals, I would probably be doing quite well right now.

It'd be rough, but the only way would literally be to buy starter materials, and then be able to produce more materials from the starter materials we were given. We'd be making initial investments in places that are evil to start, but could go from there and create things that are good, and try to pay the unfortunate back later to make up for that initial investment. They are deeply wealthy to the point that they can easily buy and sell countries. Their wealth is the kind that can command standing armies. Control entire sectors of government. Almost anyone can be bought. Every human has a price.

Ethics aren't the first thing that comes to people's minds when they buy. They're an exhausted person coming home from work that just wants to eat and not feel like a criminal for trying to live. We're all too tired to go on an endless search to try and figure out whether a purchase is ethical or not. We're going for quality, price, and effectiveness. But if we find a way to make ethical things easy to obtain whether someone researches them, sees them in an ad, or just starts on accident, then we can get rid of the barrier to entry, which changes everything. The only issue I can foresee is if the on brand companies started deeply lowering their prices in the way that walmart competes with local grocery stores. But this assumes that they're smart enough to take that loss for 10+ years straight trying to compete with the new game in town. They haven't seemed smart for awhile. They're so out of touch with reality with the financial decisions they've been making, doing stuff like replacing workers with robots that can barely do a real person's job before the robots are even ready. With some decisions they're all making in every area of product, it's as if they're allergic to money.

There could also be the idea that they instead take the slander approach, or the Luigi approach trying to make the competition stop existing. If they're especially stupid, they'd be that bold while trying to make it go away, but as I said, they have shown to have lights on upstairs, but nobody seems to be home.

@JustDisa That must have been a pain to deal with.

While I'm not encouraging the idea of people not even trying to begin with, a lot of people are so exhausted that they don't have the mental capacity to be able to do more than go to bed after work. That's why i want to find a way that takes the searching and research out of it and just get the products out there.

I think something that could make ethical things more accessible is if we had a way to do like how some fast food and coffee shops do where someone else can pay for other people's orders ahead of time. So if someone wanted to, they could pay ahead of time so other people could get to try that product. This would make people quickly get off the fence about trying the new thing because now it's completely free, eliminating the fear that people in poverty have about losing what little money they have trying something new and finding that they didn't like it.

Capital is an issue, but I bet an effort like this could literally be funded with crowdfunding to get started. Getting a following isn't easy, but the idea does exist. This conversation has been a good one. I'm not just spinning my wheels. I'm getting somewhere. You love to see it.