No, you spent $75 on a complete copy of the original Japanese cassette release of Mark Mothersbaugh's "Muzik for Insomniacs" album, complete with the photographic playing card deck.
Forgot I had an account on pixelfed.social until just now. Not sure what I'm gonna do with it, so I updated it to not have my deadname and I made it private
I’ve spent most of my adult life defining what I am not. Now I’m at the point where I need to define who and what I am. That doesn’t mean that definition is going to be fixed in stone. I mean, shit, I’m _trans_. If that isn’t proof enough that aspects of myself I thought were set in stone can be changed, I don’t know what is.
For years I believed that if I crossed off all the possibilities that were wrong, I’d eventually land on what is right. It’s clear that approach isn’t working… It does narrow down the possibilities, but I think I also need to consider revisiting some of the things I declined to see if I dismissed them prematurely or if I made the wrong decision.
It's a big undertaking, for sure. Even thinking about it now, I'm not sure where to begin. There's a foundation in that I know a lot more about who I am, having transitioned. I have a better sense in what I'm attracted to, what feels right, and what I believe in. That's enough to start working on a foundation.
Was I just hate crimed? Group of teens throwing stones at my apartment window, seemingly the one with the trans flag. They didn’t accomplish anything. They also left when they noticed me looking at them from the living room window.
Ooof. As if I needed _another_ reason to jump ship, they’re imposing a stricter dress code in the new year along with having us back in the office _four_ days a week. I overdress for work anyway because that’s how I roll, but I should be allowed to roll in with a hoodie and leggings if I went! I’m not dealing with clients!
Today in realizations… I don’t know if I know how to be creative for it’s own sake anymore. I’ve been making things with a notional audience in mind for over two thirds of my life. I had a website on GeoCities back when I was 13, and now I’m almost forty.
How do I be creative for myself first? I don’t know if I remember how.