10:44 (Continuation)
Another interesting thought I had was that the study master told me they would end the study if a medical doctor suggested to do so. If they classify it to be too dangerous to continue, and that would be outside of my control, whether I wish to continue or not. For my own safety I should hence always be honest about how I feel. Though, how did you document that this compound gave people a panic attack and severe disorientation, as well as the inability to form coherent thoughts or sentences for 3-5 days? Did you continue giving the drug then? Was the study ended abruptly after one day but the rest still recorded? Was this not seen as an emergency? How can ONE person have a condition for โ3-5 daysโ. Many questions that swirl around your head when your situation is questionable like this. However, I'm sure there's a logical explanation for it all. I'm just glad to be safe and surrounded by experts, who, in case anything were to be happening, could help me with whatever was going on. Also I like the people that are here with me!
12:25
I've written most of the previous text up until now. I have a slight headache that started about 30 minutes ago (maybe due to staring at a screen, maybe I didn't sleep well enough, maybe this morning was too stressful, maybe I didn't drink enough). I am going to have a rest from this point on and take it easy! Have a wonderful day!
12:44
Now posting all of this to Mastodon - I also wonder what the cogstate test training will be like. This afternoon we will be trained on how to do a test regarding our cognitive function.
17:36
Just had my wellbeing! Reported all my pains, but most of them are entirely gone now (headache, etc). I'm feeling well!
21:44
Just took a shower before my cannula was checked because they just put a lot of effort into wrapping cling film around it to make it water resistant. Last shower for the next two days because I need to wear an electronic device for 24 hours to monitor my every move starting tomorrow (not like not showering for two days was weird for the average IT guy). Thanks to the device I also can't use any electric tooth brush or razor as it disturbs the machine.
Spent the evening managing a lot with my work, friends, Mastodon, and future place to live! Tomorrow, however, I will be tied to the bed (not literally) so, I am not going to continue working (which is a good thing).
Another day that felt like a week. Coming from my busy and rigid schedule of my former life into the, yes quite busy and rigid hospital life but everything happens at the same place and people take care of you, does slow my perception of time down a lot. I know that when I generally feel like this, only the first days give me this feeling, but after the first week, once it becomes normal again, time begins to speed up. Although time doesn't really pass slowly, it passes quickly, yet so much happens that I remember it as being very much / long. A โshort longโ for those in the field!
23:59
Just had a two hour phone call with friends. Pretty cool day so far, also nice to finally have the time to do that :)