spending time with people just makes me feel more isolated and weird

maybe I should just move interstate, be a workaholic, and keep everyone at arms length

oh yeah! my uconsole shows up next week! \o/

Going to take a very different approach to this than I normally would an interview, going to go in to it how I normally do with customers on a consult, take the lead, see where it goes. Not like I actually need this job, but if I take it I want it to be for the right reasons.

babbled like a fucking idiot instead lmaoooOOOOOoo

innerview in less than an hour and I am now finally starting to actually Shit Myself In Pure Horror

@shibao@misskey.bubbletea.dev naisu :3

@shibao@misskey.bubbletea.dev oh there's more stuff to aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa about than just that, but yes, that is one of the contributing factors.

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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this week is going to be fucking weird, new owners take control as of friday, everything in the business is some kind or other of fucked, pays are going to be fucking weird with one last final pay on thursday for like a week and a bits worth and then wait two weeks for first pay under the new regime - who pays fucking monthly which I hate, two in arrears, two in advance. i had a bit of cash in reserve then I went and pissed it up the wall like I usually do...

i wonder if I'll hear back from bhp this week or if they'll ghost me :|

another gig in rural nsw I turned down came back to me after I told them their asking way too much in terms of how little they're paying actually have come back to me a month later and been like 'so how much do you want' and I'm not honestly sure if there is enough money in the verse to make me want to move to rural NSW...

On the other hand I found and liberated a plush panda, our business was one of the major sponsors to bring a panda breeding pair way back when and they still had shit loads of merch

though i kinda wonder whether i will be in over my head, knowing how many people struggle to wrap their heads around $carrier's ip wireless product, radius auth, mpls networks, bgp route redis, etc. maybe i'll be fine? 🤔

last i heard i was one of three candidates, one thing i'm worried about though for a principal network designer job is that I've not got a uni degree, but then, I have like fifteen years of direct domain experience doing literally the thing they're looking for?

it really feels like even if I sweet talk my way into it i'll be in way, way, way over my head. but then i think back to my current gig, within weeks the then IT Director threw me in the absolute fucking deep end, and yeah, the point of absolute fear is where I do my best work

this job opportunity in brisbane is scaring the shit out of me

god damn, recruiters pestering me now over literal-fucking-dream-jobs in a city interstate that I actually kinda wanna relocate to. weird fucking timing though. I've got juniors below me I really wanna make sure are looked after during this buyout.

spoke to the technical director of the big mega company that's bought us out again today, they're coming back in two weeks time and he's bringing their other senior engineers who are apparently super super interested in my datacentre setup, I know they've seen the proposal document I wrote for the network redesign of it, gonna be weird to having other technical people interrogate me over its design and some of the choices I made.

why are you reblogging my shit, go away, reeeeeeeee

wtf is this

used to get paranoid and super uncomfortable if I ever got complemented or credited for anything at my old job, now I tear up. what does it mean.

@shibao@misskey.bubbletea.dev I want a minebea pm-9 with wood furniture