one of the many ways an abusive relationship, whether intimate or professional or anything, can actually kill you

my blood pressure in such a situation: 151/92

my blood pressure out of it: 118/76

don't let anyone or anything steal your life and health from you

@xgranade i remember my doctor arguing about this with me recently, saying that none of that will ever be accessible without permission. and i was like yeah, i'm gonna keep being cagey about anything ive learned in my therapy sessions so it's not on record, because i know that's a lie. and here we are with the autism registry and a free for all on access to people's private medical data. sick.

@xgranade and she whipped out her god damn AI assistant app to listen to our conversation to help her with her notes. it's literally hell out here. i told her no thanks, not agreeing to that either.

funny how private, protected, incredibly inaccessible medical information actually isn't

@feld these are definitely not exhaustive but found a couple just now
https://www.toollibraryalliance.org/
https://localtools.org/find/

so far this month, the local tool library has saved me $1000 for only putting in a very VERY small fraction of that for an annual membership

i think i'll give $100 in donations for every $1000 they save me, sounds about right

#solarpunk

who up waxing they gibbous

if you're someone like me, who can blend in and easily move through groups that have higher concentrations of fascists, i have inspiring stories for you because i do this fairly regularly.

hard, established facts often don't matter to these people because they're generally so low information that their beliefs and hear-say about something ARE their facts. they don't ever have the chance or the interest or the will to figure things out on their own. their spaces are hallucinogenic and addictive.

@davidrevoy yet I’m sure they let their kids consume Disney and other hetero narrative stories without end, as well as force religion on them

edit: what's even more wild is the tracker prevention kicking in on a supposed personal email lol i mean, it may not be a tracking pixel in that little red dot up top and instead is some weird stylistic choice of putting an image in sent emails buuuut 😂

im noticing the EU has a very strange obsession with needing birth certificates as part of certain immigration processes despite having a whole ass passport for a country that objectively proves citizenship and age (which requires sufficient records locally to even be able to get).

what if someone doesn't have a birth certificate, and instead only ever had a religious record like a baptism certificate? some people aren't born in hospitals, and some people are born in very poor very rural areas.

guess everyone who didn't vote this election because of the israel and gaza situation and contributed to trump being elected are proud of themselves now 🤡

gonna be real... sometimes i really hate how my principles and morality keep me from becoming wealthier faster

case in point: trump coin cryptocurrency

knowing it's a pump and dump, knowing it's for/by and largely owned by a terrible human, knowing it's a cryptocurrency, i could've multiplied a sum of money by a factor of 10 and only have had to give up 15% of that profit to taxes. and i could've done it knowing in the end it was taking money away from badly-aligned people, and it'd be using the tools of the enemy to help fight them.

and yet, my conscience gets in the way.

so the moral dilemma -- sit idly by while others get wealthier off of stupidity and corruption or take part knowing exactly what it is to get those same benefits and then turn around and use it to help your communities and also use it against the very people you got it from

it's the same with guns. i wish for a world where no one had them or needed them, but i live in the US and i have guns because it's my right and bc everyone else has them. to not do so is irresponsible and naive.

idk what's worse. taking opportunities like that that could change lives and my communities despite the absolute dirt it comes from or just let it go and keep struggling and keep not having enough to do more and the things that need doing fast enough to do anything.

often times it feels irresponsible to not take advantage when and where ANY opportunity presents itself, especially if there's justification that little harm comes from those opportunities aside from moral injury.

ive always considered myself morally grey. maybe i should start acting in the grey more often.

at the end of the day, if you're encased by capitalism, is there really a moral question of using tools of capitalism to help accelerate its undoing?

i think that's why i like the approach of social media like IG more (i do not like meta or IG itself). it's the concept of sharing cool and fun moments and doesn't invite a lot of debate.

that kind of feel and approach to social media feels like building up cool ideas or events together instead of inviting a lot of arguments that accomplish nothing in the end over and over.

ive seen it happen here when ppl share cool projects and things theyre doing instead of just "talking/posting"

as i reread Annihilation by VanderMeer, i cant help but notice how eerily similar i am to the biologist in personality and mood

some years ago i was a vocalist in a little local metal band. ive always had a lower toned voice, and i had some unrelated nerve damage at another point in my life and my voice might have gotten a little lower then but what it mostly did was get raspier. partial vocal fold paralysis and all that. anyway, my voice is on par with a lot of other low-toned women -- courtney laplante, florence pugh are good examples.

and sometimes i get sir'd or man'd or dude'd on the phone or drivethrus.

daily reminder that in the US we are in a CLASS war, not a CULTURAL war. all the trying to make everything a cultural conflict is a red herring.