@Dan_Hulson @Jean_Philippe_Micheaux Ppl are going to be very confused reading this. Idk. It's the connection. It's too strong. I'm not good at breaking it. I don't want to feel all that, especially when it's bloody awful, hostile or someone dying.
Now in addition I know what it's like to have a connection strong enough to change me...or meet someone that does the same to me but without my restaint.
Easier to block that stuff out. I've been looking since Misty died. It took a pile of research and a bloody religious advisor. I finally figured it out.