Chicken :cqlgusu: (lookitmychicken@blorbo.social)'s status on Tuesday, 28-Nov-2023 06:27:18 JST

(Kiddo came out with a pointed skull. Vaginal birth was never a realistic option. I didn't know that. But the ob/gyn almost certainly did.)

ANYWAY. When I am incapacitated by painful feelings, and can't advocate for myself, then terrible things happen.

Therefore, I cannot ever be incapacitated by painful feelings.

For the first few years after the birth, I just shut down when things were hard. Kiddo's dad got angry at me when I shut down. That made it worse.