I'm not mad at anyone, but I don't know how to deal with the nihilism. It's not an emotional/mental state I experience in the face of fascism or I wouldn't be able to study all this awful shit like I do. I'm writing about this stuff because history tells me, and I have to believe, eventually the fascists lose and we don't all die. If I didn't believe that, it'd be like I'm just constantly sharing the worst shit in the world with everyone around me so we can all feel terrible until they kill us