I write copious notes to myself in my private discord server, and put links to bits of video etc, and then they just sit there forever.
It feels like there's a spectrum with actual observed facts at one end, and 'canon-compliant' real-person fic at the other end.
For me personally, both ends of the spectrum are fine to share and to talk about.
(I know RPF in general is *not* fine for many people, and I try to use keywords etc in ways that let people filter that out if they're not comfortable with it.)
It's that middle ground between observed facts and canon-compliant RPF that feels as though it's *not* fine to talk about in public. It's delusional and/or invasive and/or inappropriate and/or whatever whatever
It would be easier if my own thoughts tended towards RPF AUs, instead of canon-compliant RPF. But instead my brain wants to latch on to all the interactions and undertones and body language and etc from 'canon', and turn them into a narrative that seems consistent and satisfying to me.