@shadymentol but the thing is

if i had *not* blown that construction job, it would have been something keeping me in #yxe and would have been a good reason to stay here instead of going to #yqr for university about a year later. I never would have gone into computer science, pursuing engineering or something instead and my life would have been completely different. And there are 3-4 things that happened in my life that wouldn't have that I would have regretted a lot more, had I known they were on the table.