@adelinej
If my brain doesn't want to focus on something, there is nothing I can do to force it. Trying to force it makes it worse and very quickly exhasuts me.
If you held a gun to my head, "Focus on [thing brain doesn't want to focus on] or die!", I'm dead. 100%, I'm dead.
Hyperbole? Look at the fact capitalism constantly threatens me like this, just less instant, and I can't do it.