@nyx no shes unironically detransing (well she has been for a while and ive kind of known but not really) and im straight now but also shes always known that i prefer dudes even though i wouldnt date her if she was a dude so we broke up but right now we ended up watching youtube together because neither of us really have any other friends and i will never accept her as a dude. very strange situation im in. mental illness operating at insane levels you wouldnt believe