The radical, maximalist freedom of the disembodied non-beings and the Garderner felt... too close to a toxic type of "freedom". It had no restrictions, and, thus, it felt void of meaning.
No constrains. No Big Other. No sacrifice, no pain.
The other detail was that the community I could have escaped into lacked an identity. No principles. No common struggle.
Freedom without meaning or meaningful suffering without end?
I love that the game got me to pick one.