@matildazq
I went back and finished it and REALLY wish I hadn't. What I excerpted was in the bottom quintile of horrible. Even if 50% is lies and 80% is embellished, I think this bit says it all.
Imagine saying to your (then-ex) partner, "Not this one. She's too fragile." What are you confessing?
Maybe she's trying to prove to herself that he is redeemable, but a part of her has to know his kink is dominance and betrayal. Her ask is worse than meaningless, it's practically a dare.