@deadheat my personal goals, at this point in my life, are to ride out the wave and hope to secure a comfortable future. I'm 47 years old, I can't have kids, and almost all of my family is dead or in jail. I want to provide a comfortable, quiet, peaceful life for my wife and remaining family and friends, and to put more good into the world than bad in the mean time.

What would happen if I stopped drinking? The world would be a lot quieter. Less inspiration, less social energy, more time spent fretting. More sleepless nights. Less laughter. A dimmer view of the world, far less hope. More cynicism, more repression, less acceptance of life as it is.