I spent only about five and a half years being full-time employed and owning my own car and apartment living alone, and it was just a different kind of misery than living in my mom's garage playing video games and shitposting day in, day out for over a decade -- I did have like 5 part-time jobs in this time that I kept for around 2-12 months each, so I was at least trying to climb out of the hole despite the anchor of literal brain damage always choking me more and more the harder I try to do anything at all.

Anyway: living independently had its perks compared to NEETing especially at first, but it sucked that I had no energy after forcing a lid on my autism and fake-fake-faking to fit in for 40-50 hours every week. Not to mention that aforementioned anchor growing heavier and heavier with each passing month.

I don't know how people keep their minds from falling apart doing what I struggled so hard to do for their entire adult lives! Guess that's one of the many perks of being born with healthy neurology and thus being welcomed by the accepted orthodoxy of "normal" instead of getting told over and over in no uncertain terms that you are Different and that is Badwrong.

I'm thankfully getting disabilitybux now, though, and I have no intention of returning to the workforce.