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What I'm trying to say here is that I heard that the previous day, three of the other members of this study felt very high during the afternoon. I didn't keep thinking about it, but I knew about it. Maybe due to me thinking this is like Cannabis due to the receptors, and considering my first time with Marijuana was a panic attack similar to what happened today, I was merely suggested into these symptoms? I guess we could only know for sure after this study is over and it is revealed whether I had the placebo or not. If I did have the placebo, this study would be perfect for figuring out how someone can be suggested into going through what I am going through today. Yet, as the assistant's said, it's real to me either way.

That's just the thing I personally keep thinking about, as it's very embarrassing if I'm describing all of this and it turns out I had no real medicine causing this? So I was suggested into this panic attack? I'm still thinking about this a lot.

However, what I want to say as well is that I am still very happy with finishing this study! I think today the side effects were problematic, but the worst part was the panic attack induced by me not expecting something like this happening. Now that I am prepared, I would personally be too interested to see what happens after the next dose. I do not want to end the study, even if I had the same side effects tomorrow, I would probably deal with it better, maybe enjoy it, even, rather than being afraid of them, which was the problem.

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I guess that perfectly summarizes the event this day! The evening I was still 80% high, time passed weirdly, but I was no longer in shock about it.

Also I didn't include the fact that this physician came very late after the event, because he was caught up in some meeting. Though, I must say, after the event and when initially met, I was his Number one attention. My morning wellbeings were now done with him directly. In the conversation I had with him, and after giving him my verdict of me wanting to continue this study, he told me that it was very medically safe to continue. When the doctors initially rushed to me since I sounded the alarm, they began doing all sorts of tests to figure out whether I was physically in some sort of danger, and I wasn't. Now knowing what would happen when I needed any help made me sure that I wanted to continue this study, despite these effects.

I still had small moments of disorientation or other problems, but my concentration could fight against it and remind myself that everything was okay.

Also... I wrote to my personal notes app at 21:33:

Stroopwaffel is the best munchies food

It was so true.

I began trying to sleep at 23:00, and I was worried about one thing: what if I wake up tomorrow and still feel this high?

That's it for this interesting day, folx! Let us hope something like this will not happen again :)