@nihilvt @eris @animeirl It's not a feeling as such, it's a very present reality. What I can tell you is that HRT treats it and even without socially transitioning it still provides a *major* improvement in quality of life (plus if I was a cis guy I would almost certainly be taking all the Ls with my naturally frail feminine body and skittish personality anyway). Also something something chronic migraines? Might have to look into that, definitely something I've dealt with for better or worse. (as far as the state of being chemically castrated vs not being so, I really don't see it as a drawback and thanks to that madlad Powers we know it's fully reversible for purposes like spermbanking should the need ever arise)