@MeBigbrain
You are right on the money with this one.

And, I'll add to it, that white people hate each other more than any other group of people.

It is tempting to think that people are just holding back here online, because their fear the identity being exposed or something.

But, that is just an excuse. The reality is, I tried much harder to build a community IRL than I did on fedi over the last 2 years, and the people IRL were just as guarded and kept just as much distance.

In a lot of ways the people IRL were worse.

There is doom on the horizon, and for some fucking reason, white people want to ride into it alone xD

The whole thing has really caused me to re-evaluate my purposes in life. To love those who value my relationship... is as much as I've got at the moment.

And, maybe I'll eventually be able to accept watching those who keep their distance be devoured and tormented by lies. They seems determined to keep anyone from helping them, so maybe I should just laugh at them instead.