@zimowski you say that, but you're distraught about finding people and these apps can sometimes make it easier.
It's totally up to you, but I use IceCubesApp and Ivory regularly. The former is free, the latter requires a small subscription fee.
There's also Mona, which is not my taste but it has a feature that these don't. It lets you "view profile/post from original server", which will allow you to see their old posts and replies to posts right within the app. I think it could be good for you. Though, it needs a one time purchase of around $11 to take full advantage, but it might be worth it.
Just figured I'd offer some options, in case you're curious about how a *good* mastodon app looks and feels.