I'm very afraid that they will get mad at me for that. Or worse, that i need to go back to a shrink and make them waste money. And there is always the possibility that they will get mad, ignore it or them trying to guilt trip me.

I also thought about writing something for my best friend in order to explain him how deranged, jealous and spiteful i've grown in the last months since we don't have time to meet IRL and our talks are very short. And i also fear he will grow afraid of me and leave me