Getting kind of tired of you sniping at me. You can live for decades and not learn a thing. It's life, there aren't "off days" for suffering or bad things, you don't get to "retire" from them.
"Terrible take," your experience here, right now, and beforehand with Sui and Doll, demonstrates the reality of what I'm trying to tell you. Suffering has no exchange rate to where you "deserve" time away from it. There aren't vacation accruals my nigga. This isn't a Roth IRA where you get to withdraw happiness without penalty. Everything costs.