i'm not tupac, i'm not staring at the world through my rearview - i just don't want to give up on a complicated person, but i can't fight for us if he won't fight for him, you know what i mean? things got physical and scary and it's not the real him, it's his demons (his addiction). complicating factors with him serving time is just... icing, i guess. i can't focus on all of it 'cause there's a shit tonne, but that's the gist and ultimately the here/now...