and he's a wise elphant (i know) i've actually thought of reaching out to him about recent stuff. i've exhausted myself with thinking in circles and i just want a fresh take.
either i'm craving same-mind confirmation or really needing to hear it from enough people that i find whatever the heck is missing within me to step away
i'm trying to think about it like grief - who cares about the feelings, at some point, you can toy with denial and anger and bargain all you want, but you have to reach a point of acceptance eventually
we don't always get closure, but to walk away from the possibility of it is grueling. time invested isn't wasted, but unless there is commitment, it is arguably a waste of time...