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i actually felt hunger for the first time in weeks this afternoon. i knew it wouldn't last, so i seized the opportunity to eat some more of those wafers with mayo and cheese, and tonight i made three more eggs, also with cheese.

overall daily food intake:
- a small bowl of cereal
- a vegetable panini
- three and a half slices of gouda on corn wafers, with mayo and lettuce
- three eggs, 100g of cheese and an onion, all scrambled together

it's good progress, but dear lord am i paying the price of that right now. i feel even fatter than i did after that pizza two days ago.
part of me is afraid that i'm going too fast and that i'll just bounce off.

i just want to stop eating. i want to be able to live off air, water and light and never have to stuff myself ever again. i want to be free of this revolting process that seems to be everything our bodies are designed for.

i don't know how i'll handle tomorrow, or the intrusive thoughts in bed tonight for that matter.