@tillshadeisgone Have you tried CBT so you can better conform to and be useful to the abusive system rather than recognizing the system is abusive and none of us should be abused and maybe we should change the system?
Me, literally having to explain to a CBT therapist that thinking things shouldn't be so hard for everyone and being tired because it's so hard isn't me being a clinical narcissist just because she feels frustrated by me and is projecting onto me. Also, dear reader, I was chronically fatigued and emotionally distraught because I had undiagnosed autoimmune hyperthyroidism, a biological disease that can heighten emotions and make it harder to concentrate.
Life was literally and objectively much harder for me at the time because of that, it wasn't just some error in my beliefs or attitude. And, in the most annoying instance of being right, I was correct when I kept telling various doctors and therapists that I thought my anxiety and extreme emotional distress had a biological underpinning and could we please run some tests to see what was going on.