there isnt a very neatly wrapping up way to end this odd story, the pattern repeated itself a lot and my career of 12 years as an actor, as an event performer and vibe girl just came to a grinding halt within months.
Over time i came to terms with my own womanhood and found a way to get compensation through buying better leather boots to look hot in and make the queens jealous.
And later i got to the point where i could accept that the transmisogyny of subtle ostracizing from queer space as a performer came from others discomfort with their own internal sexual and gender battles as they tried to get out of their own way and that was something i couldnt change or have done differently.