And as I also noted before; it's not like other ppl didn't warn me. They did, all the way back in 2016, friends of mine (typically marginalized folks) were DMing me to say shit like "I think that guy's bad news" about folks I was hanging out with & referencing in my writing. At the time I did what everyone does, "assumed I knew better" and made allowances for "dumb Americans." I was of course, wrong. But I made amends eventually; and long before this was obvious to everyone. Hence the bad noise.