I was trained to be a classical guitarist since I was 7 years old. The training failed, as I did not become what everyone expected me to become. But it taught me cripplling self doubt, conflicting ideas about myself, internalized elitism, the idea that music is a "competition", and the idea that if I am not the best, then I am not enough, and if I am not enough, then I am pure trash. TLDR it gave me trauma. Of course there were some good things too, maybe even a lot of them, but still. I blame the system, not the individuals I interacted with. Most of them were okay, and well meaning. Still, again, the result is what it is. Saying that school as an institution (no matter if music or "regular") is traumagenic is basically a truism at this point. (Abolish schools!)
I finished "music high school", and have a diploma that officialy states that I am a musician. Once I got the diploma, I simply stopped playing. I stopped being a musician, even though I never really perceived myself as one. Kinda ironic.
Embed Notice
HTML Code
Corresponding Notice
- Embed this notice
Fish/Meercat 😷 :vegan: (rybson@todon.eu)'s status on Monday, 05-Feb-2024 04:30:12 JSTFish/Meercat 😷 :vegan: