@nyx @0utside0utsider what you described is a very relatable reality for me esp due to my adhd, the financial constraints, and work. Writing and doing projects for fun outside of like building a model kit or buying a record is both hard for me to fit in/do, will give me a lot of anxiety leading up to it and then ill go like 12/10 of my freetime into it before i burn out or no longer able to sustain that level of commitment financially. It doesnt help that the modern internet at large actively tries to brainwash you into spending all of the fucking money on whatever at any given time. Stimulants also dont help me very much sadly.