@georgia @vriska Georgia is everything alright?
I just want to remind you that feelings and thoughts of urgency and immediate danger can sometimes be just - feelings. You don't need to decide fast. Try to accurately percieve your surroundings and practice mindfulness. The more grounded you are the more you will see that you are safe. You have Vriska who will care for you and even the Internet strangers on Pleromer want you to be ok. If you really are suspicious of the people around you in fear they might want to hurt you, choose 1 person you trust the most, talk to them about it, let them be your second reference for understanding the situation around you in addition to your own senses for the time being. Talk about your perception and feelings in depth and see how you can find common ground.
You don't cause suffering, you don't need to be ashamed, we are all human and have the power to forgive and show grace and love