@FinalOverdrive Untagging nyx from this because I'm new here and dont want to bug queen Bee off the bat with effortposting in her notifs.

Knowing I'm able to hold my own in this dialogue and used semi accurate terminology has helped with footholding my confidence a bit so I appreciate that.

The millenial brainrot is just running the 'im ugly and im proud' script from Spongebob over and over again but I'll move past it. I want to find sympathy in this but I think if you hold onto failed heterosexuality for a couple years like that something queer flourishes out of it. Before I came out I spent quite a few years as this type of boy, the Punished Heterosexual. I think I simply doubt it as a sustainable vector point, either you queer out, you relapse, or you go into polycule feminist shit. If we are being realistic what happens in a material sense is these people reject attractive desire, make lots of money, and the shifting power dynamics lead them to engage again. That's fine thats life, but patriarchy has a material element and I think its important to keep that in mind. After you have a few hundred grand in your bank account, that patriarchy allots to you over other women, you're going to metamorphize regardless. Thats the whole reason a lot of us try to develop speculative fictions when men as a class get melted out etc. Focus on an induvidual for long enough and you'll start to pity almost anybody.