@Estrella
Here’s the truth of the matter. It won’t magically make the anxiety go away, but it is the truth:
You will find a path, and not by finding a job “in” your field, not by being in control, not by planning or virtue — but by trial and error, by wandering, by messing up and finding unexpected doors and just engaging with the moment you are in and rolling with the surprises. And it will all only make sense in hindsight. Only in hindsight!