I have a bizarre, but sincere suggestion... go to an AA meeting, have a cup of coffee, and just LISTEN. Most cities have meetings specifically for the gay community. It costs nothing and you have no requirement to share your feelings.
You will find people from all walks of life, some have destroyed their lives because of the addiction, and are desperate to meet new friends. The thing they need the most is a wholesome activity like camping or day at the range. It can't hurt!