Thank you for your kind words. The reasons why I was absent are complex and complicated. And nothing I could fix easily. Just to speak about one minor aspect: to get back into the habit of posting occasionally I would first have to figure out the format. I can feel that I would like to write longer forms again but my mind isn't really free to focus at the moment. And then there is the question of language: two months ago I had a discussion in German for the first time in years. That was an embarrassing experience and revealing at the same time. I think I have to start writing in German again, and be it only for myself, in order not to lose this tool of expression and (self-)analysis. For the moment I may continue passivly lurking most of the time - though that's not what the fediverse was made for.
I also followed in puzzlement how you got into trouble on your last gnusocial instance and now having a fresh start here. Cheers!