my weird Spinozism is so silly sounding like, yeah i assert in perfect confidence that there is a creator of all things absolutely infinite, singular, perfect, and incomparable, possessed of a mind and unlimited love, which one cannot but adore utterly and in whose nature it is the highest privilege to infinitesimally participate in, and yes i call that God. but this is Spinoza, the alleged prince of crypto-atheists! this is atheism!