**The Anti Hero**

The anti-hero is the brooding teenage fantasy of being a “secret good guy, who does a little bad things, but for the sake of good”. Everyone thinks about this at age 12, because it’s a stepping stone in trying to come to terms with your own agency as a man in the world. Your relationship to women, you are disgusted and horrified the first time you hold one in your arms and realize that you have total power over her. Part of working that out is imagining that you are a grey jedi, who does a little bit of the dark side, but he’s actually on the good guy’s side. It’s like imagining stopping a school shooting or saving that girl you like in class. Everyone does it. But it’s not enough when you’re older than 20.

Redemption demands total commitment. You can’t have it both ways. The leap of faith is total. You can’t keep a foot on solid ground “just in case“ things go wrong and it doesn't pan out. Redemption is free. Redemption will cost you everything. There is no contradiction.

The reason modern mainstream media sucks is because it’s being written by people with a total lack of commitment to anything. The anti-hero is the lack of commitment crystallized to an archetype. The Hero is total commitment. Gigachad is a hero.

The way this manifests in you is your lack of commitment. “I want a good trad life for YOU, but me, oh no I couldn’t possibly have one.” “I want for YOU to have a loving wife and many children, but me? Oh no I’m beyond redemption, I don’t deserve that, so I can just have a little degeneracy and have sex with floozies and put notches on my belt.” “I want for YOU to be healthy and strong, but me, oh no, I don’t deserve that, so I can just indulge in being fat and eating trash.”

The anti-hero inside you is not this false humility: the anti-hero is pride