@DEERBLOOD @hikari Dear God! That's sad to hear. You are not a Christian then. It's the very first commandant you are actively breaking. You cannot have two masters. You need to repent of this and actually put faith Christ above all else.

"Whoever loves father or mother [and by extension race] more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.
38 And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. (Matt.hew 10:37-38)