@Eiswald @BowsacNoodle Sounds about right. Demon possession comes with psychotic breaks. It's deception to obscure from you whether you're just mentally ill, or having supernatural experiences. Some are just mental illness provided by demons, some of it will be genuine supernatural events.

Here is what I find interesting. From a Christian perspective. The bible talks about meditation. A lot. "Was I in my body, or outside my body? Only God knows." Paul had visions that behaved somewhat I'd describe how I felt being demon possessed. (NO, I don't think Paul was possessed. But, I think the mechanisms behind it that God uses may have been hijacked by demons.)

What does meditation actually look like for Christians? Is the lack of meditation, fasting, a reason why Christians do not interact with the Holy Spirit as a means to practising gifts of the HolySpirit?

It's true, your prayer has to meet God's will, in order for prayer to be fulfilled. But, I feel like some of those apostle experiences may have surrounded meditation and fasting.

For exampole, Jesus said his followers would fast when he left.

I don't have the anwer. But, I can say. Modern Christians do not display supernatural power that Christ said his followers would display. They do sure like dramatically pretending they do though.