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   Shadow Heart (sh4d0w_h34rt@cyberpunk.lol)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 08:24:43 JST Shadow Heart

   • 💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷

   @Rasp friendships are a two-way street. You're trying, their not, so f em. I let jerks like this have too much sway over me in the past. If they can't show you even this level of respect, they aren't worth your time. Never let their disrespect devalue who you are.

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     💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷 (rasp@raru.re)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 08:24:42 JST 💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷

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     @Sh4d0w_H34rt I aint got any value. I don't see anyone putting in any effort to try and get to know me and spent time cause if they did I'd be so happy.

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     💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷 (rasp@raru.re)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 08:41:15 JST 💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷

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     @Sh4d0w_H34rt I tried that but it is genuinely difficult to hold it together when you have bipolar disorder and absolutely no emotional support system, no family, no friends, and only an overworked therapist to help even slightly.

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     Shadow Heart (sh4d0w_h34rt@cyberpunk.lol)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 08:41:16 JST Shadow Heart

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     • 💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷

     @Rasp I know this can be hard to hear, and it's a harder thing to live with, but happiness is something we have to find for ourselves, not from others. When we find our happiness, then others find us.

     I've spent years struggling with depression. The only times I had genuine people around me were when I found my own happiness. Trying to please others all the time just brings us down.

     I understand how hard it is to find self-worth, I'm literally a redheaded stepchild who was treated like crap growing up and have a body defect thanks to cancer.

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     💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷 (rasp@raru.re)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 08:45:03 JST 💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷

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     @Sh4d0w_H34rt I feel like walking out into traffic

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     Shadow Heart (sh4d0w_h34rt@cyberpunk.lol)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 08:45:04 JST Shadow Heart

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     @Rasp I know. Like sand through our fingers, every time we try to hold onto something we care about.

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     💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷 (rasp@raru.re)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 08:49:15 JST 💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷

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     @Sh4d0w_H34rt I'm tired of spite I'm 36 too old for that shit. I'm tired and want to die.

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     Shadow Heart (sh4d0w_h34rt@cyberpunk.lol)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 08:49:16 JST Shadow Heart

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     @Rasp please don't. I know you're spiraling.

     Finding something to motivate us going forward is hard. For me it's spite, I will make it despite all those a-holes putting me down, and I will do everything I can to prevent others from having to go through what I have.

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     💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷 (rasp@raru.re)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 09:13:31 JST 💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷

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     @Sh4d0w_H34rt I have heard that so many times my entire life and nothing has ever improved. I have worked my ass off to try and do something and no matter how hard I try nothing works.

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     Shadow Heart (sh4d0w_h34rt@cyberpunk.lol)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 09:13:32 JST Shadow Heart

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     @Rasp I wish there were something I could say or do to help, but am at a complete loss.

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     💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷 (rasp@raru.re)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 10:07:38 JST 💜 AdoraBeryl 🩷

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     @Sh4d0w_H34rt its not your fault nobody can help me. not even me.

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     Shadow Heart (sh4d0w_h34rt@cyberpunk.lol)'s status on Friday, 16-Aug-2024 10:07:40 JST Shadow Heart

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     @Rasp times like these, I really hate how much my head injury affects my ability to communicate, especially on the internet. My poor internet means I can't game online with you. We are likely nowhere to one another, so no hanging out or anything. But I sincerely wish I could help you in some way.