In this 5th year of the Pandemic, I'm kinda gut punched by the abandonment of friends, some family and my peers.
I get punched again each time I see an event CFP shared with no health policy.
I recommend reading this piece by @MediaActivist . It's a very long, comprehensive read.
You aren't alone. This isn't your fault. Our society as it is set this up. It's just more of us are on the sharp edges of it. We're the canaries in the coalmine.