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   Burn This Dyspho Out 🏳️‍⚧️ (testoceratops@disabled.social)'s status on Wednesday, 14-Feb-2024 18:05:25 JST Burn This Dyspho Out 🏳️‍⚧️

   23 years ago, on this day, my whole life's changed, with my oldest and darkest trauma.

   I'm not sure I've talked about it on Fedi yet, maybe on one of my previous accounts. But I wrote about it all a few times back on the birdsite and will do it again here. If I do, be careful with the TW because that's extremely triggering for people when I talk about it.

   Feeling awful. One of the two worst days in the year for me

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     23 years ago, my "father" attempted an infanticide on young me (I wasn't even 3 yet, but I still have some memories unfortunately) and a feminicide on my mum, before doing the same thing to himself.

     I wasn't supposed to survive, it was a "miracle", they all said. Then I was supposed to lose my hand but didn't thanks to a successful surgery, but I lost everything on that day and it's been a weight ever since.

     My whole life became hell.

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     Can't stop crying and have traumatic flashback, I hate this anniversary so much. And it's on a famous day, so that makes it even worse to handle because almost everyone talks about it.

     Gonna go listen to music, hopefully that'll be helpful and I'll be able to sleep, at last. It's already 6am here and I'm exhausted and hopeless with everything right now...

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     Thank you so much for the kindness, I read my mentions but can't answer now. I will do it tonight.

     I'm so grateful for your support. :blobcatheart:

     If you want to help me make this day a bit less worse, you can boost and/or donate (if you can and want to, don't feel obligated please) on my crowdfunding post.

     Thanks again for everything, love y'all so much. Have a good day, friends!

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     Gonna publish one post about it.

     I will make it really short without details and won't mention how things went after that, but please don't read it if you are really sensitive or triggered by any of the TWs.

     Please, take care of yourselves first. I don't wanna ruin your day or trigger anyone...