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   Luna ♾️ (lunaceleste@calc.moongirl.io)'s status on Wednesday, 21-Jun-2023 10:19:35 JST Luna ♾️

   I'm pretty sure I've mentioned this several times before but I do really wonder what it would have been like if I had a proper understanding of trans people when I was in middle school praying to wake up a girl.
   
   My stipulation was that I only wanted to do it for a day so that I'd know what it was like. But I've identified as a trans woman for a few years, I've more or less been open about it online for 2, and I've been on HRT for 1 year and two days. If I got that for one day when I was 11 or 12 I'd want to old onto it for longer.
   
   But I didn't really understand what being trans was. I wasn't that familiar with the idea. I knew of sex change operations and I had considered it as something I could potentially do if I really wanted so I wasn't opposed to that for me. But I thought I'd always be a guy.
   
   If trans stuff were as spoken about back then as it is today, even with all the scary shit, I think having access to that knowledge would have given me greater context towards my own yearnings. In some ways I'm glad I was unaware. I don't have what the DSM would classify as dysphoria but if I knew I don't know if that would have continued to be the case.
   
   When I was finally aware presenting the lie that was my male personal got harder. If I have to give this up now it will make me miserable. I probably wouldn't have been able to so much as get puberty blockers and I'd probably have suffered more abuse and bullying from family and family of family. And if I kept it to myself then I'd have been forced to live what I would then know to be a lie.
   
   So in a way I'm glad ignorance forced me to wait.
   
   But I shouldn't have had to.

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     AnCuRuadh ΔΘ :verified_trans: (ancuruadh@awwter.online)'s status on Wednesday, 21-Jun-2023 10:19:25 JST AnCuRuadh ΔΘ :verified_trans:

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     • Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13

     @LunaCeleste @miriamrobern Being trans is awesome, isn't it? We get to live our dreams... Literally! :blobfoxaww: :blobfoxaww: :blobfoxaww:

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     AnCuRuadh ΔΘ :verified_trans: (ancuruadh@awwter.online)'s status on Wednesday, 21-Jun-2023 10:19:30 JST AnCuRuadh ΔΘ :verified_trans:

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     • Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13

     @miriamrobern @LunaCeleste I remember that! :blobfoxpeekowo:

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     Luna ♾️ (lunaceleste@calc.moongirl.io)'s status on Wednesday, 21-Jun-2023 10:19:30 JST Luna ♾️

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     • Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13

     @AnCuRuadh@awwter.online @miriamrobern@dice.camp You know I never thought about WHAT I'd wear, but I did really wanna wear women's clothes.
     
     And now I'm living the dream -w-

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     Luna ♾️ (lunaceleste@calc.moongirl.io)'s status on Wednesday, 21-Jun-2023 10:19:32 JST Luna ♾️

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     • Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13

     @miriamrobern@dice.camp I mean it's perfectly normal to have thoughts and fantasies whee you get some sort of magical sex change uwu
     
     I mean, everyone knows what it's like to have lasting thoughts like that, right? It's not like that could mean anything.

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     Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13 (miriamrobern@dice.camp)'s status on Wednesday, 21-Jun-2023 10:19:32 JST Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13

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     @LunaCeleste Totally. Because who HASN'T planned out what they would wear on that date after they woke up one morning with boobs and hips, right? It's just mental preparedness for contingencies that may or may not happen.

     I was a good boy scout, I wanted to Be Prepared.

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     Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13 (miriamrobern@dice.camp)'s status on Wednesday, 21-Jun-2023 10:19:33 JST Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13

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     @LunaCeleste I never "wanted" to be a girl, I just wrote elaborate stories where magical sex change just happened to hit me and there was nothing I could do about it, oh no, guess I'll date my best friend.

     THERE WERE NO SIGNS!

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     Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13 (miriamrobern@dice.camp)'s status on Wednesday, 21-Jun-2023 10:19:35 JST Mims • TorchLite ignites Nov13

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     @LunaCeleste The more I think about it, the more would need to be changed for me to have easily transitioned in my youth.

     I would need that proper understanding. I'd need to not think it was shameful. I'd need to not be a conservative evangelical. I'd need my parents to be a LOT more open and a lot less stressed about everything else (the 80s was not a kind decade). Honestly, my parents' socio-economic class would need to change just in general.

     And then maybe I'd have transed pre-puberty.