it's been a while since i've posted any of my many unfinished demo instrumentals, let's get back to it! i'm pretty sure this one's first iteration came from 2021, and that i last touched it one and a half years ago
I'm interested in shooting for that as a goal, and I'd say I'm a bit more capable of managing it than most trans zoomers who hate this country's current situation, due to having grown up in a country-hopping family. I just worry about finances and time, among other things.
Lowkey I sometimes muse about the ethics of telling my parents I had a "vision" that I should serve God in a nation that happens to be trans-friendly, and then using their support until I'm established and feel safe cutting contact, so I can move away from the US and transition without having to deal with losing their support so early.
My entire family briefly moved to a small town in eastern Germany when I was 10 because my parents determined it from a vision I had during our family prayer meeting for where to go once the Turkish government forced us out, so there's some precedent for them to respond like that when confronted with my "prophetic ablities"
I'd only worry about unforseen legal repercussions and my ability to fake it, because I still believed in god back when I was 10, and genuinely thought what I saw had been planted within my mind by a higher power. While I'm still pretending to be Christian to them, I know I no longer pass as a hard-core one like they are, so it might be hard to pull off if I ever get desperate enough to actually try this.
@clarity 7drl has had a lot of takes on ascii roguelike combat over the years that i found interesting, some that immediately come to mind are swift swurd and dead face
and there's a lot of potential for stuff without combat too, ultima ratio regum and the stealth 7drl lurk leap loot are the big ones that come to mind for me.
and while im speaking about roguelikes, one of the things that gets my brain juices flowing hardest with regards to the artistic capabilities of roguelikes is this old paper by Mark R. Johnson, who creates ultima ratio regum
yeah the sequels charming in its own right lol. you ever read the novella that came with the first game? that shit only adds to the unhinged energy of it all
@clarity Tho when you say that, do you really mean "wasted potential"? For example, I feel that Below The Root is a gem of a game grossly chained to a rock by the C64's limitations. However, Captain Blood's hardware limitations actually added SO MUCH to it (that's a thing that can happen!), so it's ultimately the creator's misfires that hold it back.
It's "I wish these scrappy creators had the resources to fully realize their vision" VS "They're straight-up wasting what they have to offer"
@laslojott@clarity In hopes of saying what I said before with more...clarity, I actually think that everything I love is quite good, but in most cases, like with my current favorite album Census Designated, part of that love stems from nitpicking it's "off" bits and missed opportunities (with regards to lyrical ambiguity and some moments), alongside everything about it that has me connecting to it so hard. (its by a trans woman near my age, the gender relation themes, THE PRODUCTION, etc)
@laslojott@clarity You can always learn from and try to fix art you dislike, but with something that's like 99% there for you, it both makes the missing 1% eat at the back of your mind, and gives you a powerful and resonant foundation to start with. Art is like people, I love what is there even though it will never be perfect 🖤💙👁💙🖤
Ena is......only human....trying to bring more beauty into the world....struggling with an interest in everything....a depressed, autistic, teenage transgirl....coping with conservative Christian parents....waiting for the opportunity to be a woman....haunting a dilapidated bedroom in the northeast US....simultaneously sleeping too much and too little. ...experimenting with new names on the internet!