Notices by Wallflower 🌺 (waitnwallflower@beige.party)

I've come to recognize that my son doesn't like Primus.

This is perhaps my biggest GenX parenting fail.

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Happy Sunday

On February 1, 2020, I was a nanosecond from walking out my garage door with my son to take him up to OSU (Columbus, OH) for an important HS track meet when my landline rang.

I paused to take the unusual call on a Saturday morning at about 7am.

It was my 2nd oldest brother and as soon as he said hi to me I knew the call was to tell me that my sister was dead. It was remarkably inherent to me. A call I had years anticipated given her drug and alcohol abuse. Before he said much of anything, I asked, "is this about Lisa?" "Yes."

He let me know she passed either the 30th or 31st of January overnight in Costa Rica at our father's house. Heart attack. (Likely drug/alcohol induced. She was in her 50s.)

I then got in the car to take my son to his meet without letting on so that I would not ruin his momentum for his day. My mind for that first hour and a half drive running through so many emotions, regrets, my hours of that meet when my son wasn't running was spent posting on Twitter about her and her loss, who she was before she was overcome with addiction, who she became, the loss she became. I didn't tell my son until we got home, he had only met her once because of her addiction. He held me as I cried grieving her life. I then had to go to my mom's to tell her. I held her as she cried. RIP, Lisa.🕊🕯

So, anyway, this post is to remind people who might be suffering from addiction that if you can still read this, it is not too late to seek help. (That's why I have chosen not to content warn this.)

Please. Thank you. 💜

I like industrial rooftops... 🤷♀️

#monochromemonday

Sorry, there will be flowers today, lots of flowers, since I am trapped in this winter hell.

My SIL just texted me asking me to reach out and connect with my niece because she feels like she might need me.

I told her that assuming I can dig out by next weekend, and assuming my niece accepts me coming over, I will head over.

When I told her that, she was very grateful, so that tells me that I am needed.

The protector shall step in here and do what I can.💜

Winter rose.

💕🫂❤️

Apparently my 2026 persona is meeting skipper.

Have ditched all my meetings again today.

"Just not feelin it"

My son noticed my new poster in my office yesterday.

I came around the corner and he was staring at it.

When he saw me, he asked, "What the hell is this?"

😂
I went over to it and said, while pointing at the related elements, "It was a gift to me. It's obviously Strawberry Shortcake wielding a sword over the slain body of a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle, while riding My Lil Pony."

"Oh...okay then, normal for you things."

Different areas of the sky, different times.

🎶if I lay here🎶

One more as the sun is fading

The sky currently 💙

@aral
Thank you.💜
Right before it happened, I thought "why isn't this perforated? I hope I don't stab myself."
I knew the risks...
Evergreen.

Just achieved the best thing that's happened to me in 2026 so far.

Stabbed myself in the hand.

Let us rejoice.

I'm okay, I won't need stitches and my nails are all good.

Cleaning out stuff, purging, and came across bad and good memories.

A letter from my father, 2005. (No, I never responded and will be throwing this out now.)
My old Kiss tee and part of my zebra print spandex outfit!

And, my angel wings.
Forgetting to wear these to a costume party helped me win best costume 😁