@kaia@brotka.st I don't mind replying in public. It's not like I'm trying to keep this a secret, I just rarely talk about it because I usually have nothing to say on this matter. :drgn_flat:
So yeah, I do genuinely wish to be a fox. I don't know the source of this desire, I've just always felt more comfortable with the idea of being an animal than a human. Some of my earliest memories are about me imagining myself as a bird and focusing on the sensation of having such a different body. It's been a constant throughout my life and I can hardly express how much I long for it to become reality. It doesn't matter that I'm completely aware of all the drawbacks and consequences, if I was given the chance I would take it in a heartbeat.
Obviously, that will never happen, though. I accepted it because what other choice do I have, but I'd be lying if I said that it wasn't eating away at me at times. I found two things that help me handle my feelings: The first one is creating art. The second one is my online identity which lets me live out myself genuinely, unlike my "real" name and my "real" face. Here I'm not strictly limited to my body and I'm truly thankful that this possibility exists.
As for the recent dragon stuff, I thought about what this character means to me. I identify with it because it's an expression of my creativity and taste, but it hasn't taken over the role of foxes.
So the gphn emojis have the same problem as the drgn emojis: they're too dark. So that means I can either crank up the background color so they don't look anything like I want, or I change the eyes to be more visible
Yeah okay, this works well. The situation here isn't as tricky because for the dragons, I would've had to make the smile white as well and that looked horrible. But here there's the beak and I can just leave it as-is
Former red fox, now dragon who likes to program, create vector art, and be on fedi. :drgnmlem:Do not read my posts unless you've sworn your eternal devotion to the fox god. Or do, I can't stop you. :drgnflat: I will usually accept follow requests, no need to send me a DM. :drgn_happy:--#fedi22 #fox #foxes #dragon #dragons #computerscience #art #linux #misskey #haskell